Dear friends, its 5:40am and I haven't been able to get back to sleep since about 5am. I was tired last night and attempted to go to sleep and no luck. I tried being relatively drug free but to no avail and did end up taking a drug called Lorazapam which is an anxiety/insomnia drug that should help with relaxation and yes I did fall asleep, but I tossed and turned all night.
So, what does this mean? Well, overall physically I feel pretty good. Yesterday was a good day and honestly I feel pretty good right at the moment. I blame it on my psyche! Today is Thursday and in my book, its a good Thursday because its not a chemo Thursday. But, it is a Thursday and it also happens to be blood draw Thursday which again, isn't a bad thing really... each week between chemo sessions is a blood draw just too make sure everything looks normal as normal is.
I'm assuming that my brain is in overdrive just because I need to go to the Infusion Center. That is really the only explanation for why I wouldn't get a good night's sleep... Damn you brain! Our brains, so smart yet so dumb at the same time.
On the up side, and please don't tell the little ones... Kevin and I are hoping that blood draw is quick and we might be able to squeeze a quick trip to IHOP, their pancakes are quite decent before he needs to head off to work.
Until next time.