Dear friends,
I honestly don't know what that means to me this year... I woke up this morning at 3 am after a rough night of sleep, got up to go potty and then proceeded to yack all over the floor. I stood there fumbling around for the next place to go and the sink is where I made it too.
My wonderful husband who has been staying with me every single night bounced up to help me and things calmed down.
As I sat down in bed and realized that it is indeed January 1st 2011, I just blanked. I don't really know what it means... I wasn't sad, or angry, or happy, or anything... just blank. Then my stomach started to hurt and life began again. Now its 4:30 and I'm getting tired again and I should try to get some sleep.
Hopefully we will be out of here sometime before it gets dark again... that's my goal for today... HOME SWEET HOME with my family around me and no pumps, no vital checks, no blood draws, no hospital food, and no hospital bed.
With that said, I've spend more time here than many of my vacations. The RN's and CNA's here have been the BOMB... I have gotten to know them pretty well and they are a bunch a great gals and guys and have taken the best care of me possible.
Looking onward and forward to 2011 and Beyond!
Until next time...
-Katie
26 comments:
Well, feeling blank may be the best you can do under these circumstances. Your slice of life right now is as rough and as unfair as it gets. I'm glad you are getting good and kind care. Many hugs!
ps. I saw the pics of your kids on FB and they are adorable!
Keeping you in my thoughts Katie, as are all the folks at Craft Critique. Big hugs!
I hope you'll get your wish for today and get to go home, Katie! It will feel good to be in your own bed. Keep looking up!
Tricia
Prayers going up and fingers crossed that you get sprung from the hospital today. Being at home with all of your family will be great for you. Love to all of you!
Dear Katie,
Wishing you all the best, lots of strenght and love and praying that you and your family will get through this.
When I read all your posts....it brings many things back into perspective, I don't really know you (other than a little bit through CDS) but it's heart breaking to read about all the things happening to you.
Praying for you and your family, lots of love, Anja
Hi. I came across your blog through SCS. I had been reading your posts last night and said a prayer for you and your family. May the good Lord work His miracles on you. Keep the faith Katie. Bless you.
Yen
Happy New Year, Katie. I can't imagine what you are feeling right now, but I hope you get to go HOME with that family! I'm so glad you are getting good care and support. :)
Wishing you peace and strength to fight this cancer inside of you. Prayers that the chemo will work and that the doctors that treat you will be on top of things. You will win this battle...blessings to you in this new year.
I really appreciate your willingness to share what you are going thru with all of us and the world ... I would imagine that sharing might help you in some way. (i think it would me!)
You remain on my heart and in my prayers, as does your family. I am so grateful you have such a wonderful husband and family! I hope you are able to go home today!
Happy New Year Katie girl!
I'm thanking God for Kevin and your great sister and family!
All the pics are great.
I hope you feel better and are able to come home today.
Love and hugs!
Em
Thinking of you again. :-) Thank you so much for sharing so much.
HUGS,
~nance
You did it, Katie! You got through Chemo Round 1, you did it! So glad you get to go home soon, many hugs to you and prayers, too!
Hello my dear Sister,
It brings me comfort knowing you are able to come to this place and share what you are going through with all your friends of the blog, and I suspect that as much as it helps for your friends (and family) to be able to come by and read them, I think it must be helpful for you to have a sounding board full of support and other perspectives, including those who may have gone through similar experiences.
Here's to seeing you home today and to looking onward and forward to 2011 and beyond.
Love you!
You have your own space in my heart--expanded in my concern for you. That means that your honesty and bravery have blessed me, and I don't even know you in person. But I am with you daily. Blessings on you and your family.
You have your own space in my heart--expanded in my concern for you. That means that your honesty and bravery have blessed me, and I don't even know you in person. But I am with you daily. Blessings on you and your family.
Continued good wishes Katie, I hope you'll get home amongs your family, sometimes that is the best morale booster.
Claire xxxxxxx
Sorry you are still feeling lousy Katie. Bad way to start the new year.Like Kelly S. said...you made it through your first round! That is one to put behind you!
I bet each day will get better as life gets back to resembling normal once you are home.
You are in my prayers daily!
Hugs,
True :D
Hi Katie! I've added your blog to my Google Reader, and it always cheers me up to see that you have a new entry. Keep them coming. I am hoping that you get to go home today and enjoy the new year with your family in the comfort of your home.
I hope you're at home with your family tonight. Big hugs to you!!!
Praying this new year brings hope and peace Katie Kate. Love ya.
Katie,
Joan shared your story briefly with us on Splitcoast and asked that we write you a note. You and your family are in my prayers.
Hi Katie!
I just happened to find your blog this morning from the May Arts site, though I do not believe in coincidences! Just wanted you to know that I have sent prayers for you, that the Lord would release all burdens from your body and that you would receive healing, peace, and blessings from above, and that the Lord would protect you from the side effects of your treatments. May your New Year be filled with miracles and blessings!
Hi Katie - Thanks for keeping us updated on your blog. It's great to hear updates in your voice. I keep you in my prayers daily and think of you often. I am so sorry you were given this awful burden, but you are strong and will forge on!
Sending you big cyber hugs!
Barb
Hi Katie! I hope you get home to your family and familiar surroundings today! I know it will be more comfortable for you. Glad to see you posting here. know that you are in my prayers daily that you will feel better!
with many hugs
Julia
I'm a cancer survivor. The one thing that helped me over and over was 'hope'. Some days I had little or none...but my friends and loved ones did....they had what I did not have and it was enough...and they kept hope alive and inspired me to reach for hope in spite of feeling hopeless.
Just the act of trying to grasp that which you cannot see or believe is an act of faith.
When Jesus told the man with the withered hand to 'reach forth' he asked of that man the one thing he was unable to do (Mark chapter 3; KJV 1611 version)....the healing came when the man did the seemingly impossible. As the man by faith began to reach forth--to do the seemingly impossible-- the miracle happened...his hand was healed.
While you wait for your miracle do all you can to keep hope alive. Surround yourself with positive people.
Being hopeful does not mean you are in denial. Your situation is a hard one. But with God all things are possible. His perfect will for you will be revealed. In the meantime, keep reaching for HOPE.
Katie I hope that 2011 is a good year for you inspite of your hardships. Sometimes feeling "blank" is the best one can do.
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