Sunday, October 16, 2011

YAY FRIENDS!!!!

Yes it's me Katie here.  Kevin has been doing a great job keeping you all updated, what a guy,  he is very talented.  Things are going pretty well here at the hospital, but it is very difficult for me to concentrate for very long due to all the pain meds.    I leave most of the thinking to Kevin... it seriously wears me out.

The point is though that am so grateful for all of you taking the time to think of me and y family - IT DOES HELP!

The funny thing though is that I think I'll miss my crafting as much as anything else.  I think of "crafting" almost like a 4th child... weird?  Do any of you think like that?

Anyway, I really can't think of anything else to say.  All the medical stuff has been addressed by Kevin and we don't have any other news about that.  I have no idea what the radiation was like since I was knocked  for both   of them.  Maybe I will manage to to be awake for the one that is scheduled for tomorrow.

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That is where Katie started to nod off...  It was great to see her sitting up and chatting with her Dad and the nurse. She had her normal spark in her eye and was laughing and in good spirits. I know that all of my posts here have been pretty much sticking to the facts about what is going on; it is Katie's blog after all.  Today I feel I need to share story from the other day before we started radiation.

I was laying here browsing Facebook reading all the positive thoughts, well wishes, prayers, and the such when I came across a photo posted by Katie's best friend Brenda.  The photo shows Katie and the twins on the front porch of the house with her kneeling down with the twins with her infectious smile and love of the boys so clear to see.  The contrast between the person in the photo and the person laying in front of me hit me like few other things have; the overwhelming feeling of loss at not seeing the smile and feeling the joy that she brings to all of our lives was more than I could really deal with. The rapidness of her condition, going from sewing nap pillows for the twins kindergarten class on Thursday to being told that she wouldn't be getting out of the hospital and there was no real hope past pain management at the Hospice House while she continued to slowly bleed to death was something I was not prepared to deal with.

We have spent quite a bit of time talking about what our future holds, what our short term goals are, what our longer term goals are, where we are going to be buried...  What I hadn't done was take any time or put any thought into what I needed to say to Katie, what I needed to do before she is gone and as I looked at the photo and her laying in front of me I came to know that one thing I needed. I needed to feel the joy that her smile and touch brings, to have her at home, to see her with our boys.





I do have a bit of an update (those of you that are squeamish should stop here)

As you all know, we came to the hospital due to her pain and vomiting quite a large amount of blood (very black grainy liquid), something which is quite disconcerting.  Over the time we have been here she has continued to vomit on a regular basis; a hard thing to watch. While I know it is torture for her, there is a small positive part; her emesis has been getting more and more clear every day and this morning I wasn't really seeing any blood; I hope this is a sign that the radiation is working and that we are one step closer to MY short term goal of seeing her on the porch smiling with our boys, only this time Hunter has to be there too!

On another note; this morning shortly before 6:00 I woke to Katie standing over me giving me a kiss and I was again filled with that feeling of joy that I know and love so much.

Take care,
Kevin

156 comments:

Susan@CardmakingCompanion said...

Kevin, I'm typing this with tears in my eyes - your words are so beautiful and the love you have for your family shines through them.

I live in the UK and have only recently found your blog but in a matter of days you have both touched my heart.

I don't know whether or not your are religious people but I pray that God's love and blessings will enfold you all.

Susan

Sue from Oregon said...

I just cried as I read this. All my love to you both and to your children. Please tell Katie I love her.

Lauri said...

oh Katie! I have been following your journey for years, and how wonderful to hear from you! Kevin and your family is a blessing ... and you encourage us more than you imagine! You are in my prayers and thoughts at all times! Prayers for strength and peace coming your way!

Carrie said...

Katie & Kevin,
It truly sounds as if angels are working overtime, praying for Katie to be home with her family.

eleftheria said...

best wishes for healing , strength and hope from Greece

Sara Mac said...

I continue to pray for Katie's full healing and for comfort and joy for your family. What a wonderful gift for you to wake up to Kevin! Praise the Lord.

Bobbi-Lynn said...

I am in tears, as I read your words, and those of Katie's. Continued prayers for your family. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

J.S. said...

I can't stop the tears - I don't even know your family but feel like I am seeing this through your eyes. Thank you for the updates. Katie, you and your family are in our prayers every single day and I check here often. Praying you are able to join your family at home once again. Lots of love and prayers, Angelica

hello gorgeous said...

{{{{{hugs}}}} & xxxxxxxxxx's to all of you. I understand the road that follows but Kevin, you must achieve that photo whether on the porch or not....you will kick yourself otherwise sweetie.

It's been a sad day for me today after reading your previous two posts this morning...but laughing & planning are such good things to continue with, don't stop Kevin...Katie {when you are awake} know that the BIGGEST WARMEST bear hugs are always coming in your direction.....thanks for touching a small part of my life through blogging/facebook ;o)

lots of love & hugs

hello gorgeous xxx

Robin Rhyneer Chrisman said...

Thinking of you all and praying for you all and if there is anything I can do to help in any way please let me know.

i {heart} papers said...

Kevin. I am at a loss for words. Your love and pain and sadness are so raw and clear. Thank you for sharing them and Katie with us.

Ted said...

Kevin, your love will see you all through this. Love cannot be destroyed. I'm praying that God's love for you all will show itself and that you will experience His peace. Thank you for the update. Love that photo! :)

THE HOOSIER STAMPER said...

I too am in tears, and my heart aches for all of you! I was reading this to my husband and could hardly make it through it. I know yesterday when I was praying for Katie and all of you, I felt a feeling of chills and it was a comforting feeling. All I know is that I felt God's spirit, and know that he is in control! I am a firm believer in God and his miracle's. Prayer changes things and I know all of us crafty bloggers are praying for Katie.
Katie praying that you feel better everyday, and that you can enjoy your time with your 3 little boys and your wonderful husband.
Katie praying that you can get back to enjoying your love of crafting. God Bless you! Leah Ann The Hoosier Stamper

Cassie said...

I am so overwhelmed with emotion for all of you. Reading it as it unfolds, I feel so blessed to 'know' your family. Always praying for you all, and hoping you get to attain all of your goals.

gramma jacki said...

There really are no words...I sincerely hope that Katie, Kevin and the boys can be at home together soon with peace and love filling their hearts together. I will continue to send positive thoughts your way. Thank you both for the continued updates. <3

Lorraine said...

I too am in tears. Thank you for your honest updates and for sharing your feelings with us. I continue to pray and send positive energy your way. May god continue to watch over your family.

THE HOOSIER STAMPER said...

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ThePurplePlace said...

Katie and Kevin,
It was wonderful to hear from your both today and also so touched by both posts.

Reading Katie's words and then Kevin's is heartbreaking and I can't being to even imagine the feelings you both are experiencing now. I can say that my heart goes out to you both and that you will continue to be in my prayers.

I Pray that Katie can go home and take the picture with all three of your wonderful boys!!

Hugs and Prayers,
Lisa

Susan said...

Oh, dear Katie and Kevin: My heart is full of love for both of you and for your boys. You have allowed all of us to share in your journey through this past year, and I thank you for that. Kevin, you have been so amazing throughout this journey, and your sons will remember this and the love that you share with their beautiful mother. I still pray daily for a miracle, and also that you will all feel the love of those of us throughout the world who only know you through Katie's Paper Haven.

Chef Mama Lori said...

Sweet Katie, I'm so glad you felt well enough to post for yourself a bit! Continuing to pray for you! Kevin, what a beautiful post about your wife. Thank you for sharing that with us. We will pray for that short term goal as well.

America said...

Thinking of your family. Prayed for you at Mass today. Thanks for sharing yourselves. It was lovely to read updates from both of you and how special to see that lovely picture. Keep working towards that goal and it will happen! :)

Sarah Moore said...

always glad to read a post from you kate (and kevin)... im sorry you are so uncomfortable and continue to pray for your peace.

Melissa said...

SO happy to read what you wrote, Katie! I so relieved that the radiation seems to be working and that things are getting better! I will continue to pray for all of you!

Donna said...

Type ...delete...type ....delete. thats what I've been doing as I just can't find the words to express my feelings, you are both so brave and I'm terribly sorry you are all going through this and I so want to be able to make this all go away, all I can give you is a big cyber hug and prayers. Thinking of you always. hugs Donna x

~amy~ said...

I'm like everyone else...in tears....whatta post....I'll continue to send good wishes your way....thanks for the update.

Bernadette said...

"Yes it's me Katie here." Best phrase I've read in blogland for a while. Really lifted my spirits. So glad that Katie is finally feeling better.

Then I read Kevin's portion and found myself sobbing all over my computer. Kevin, you and Katie are truly amazing. I'm not a prayer warrior, but I will pray that Katie comes home soon. Looking forward to seeing your family picture on that porch!

Linda said...

Prayers that you all will feel a great big bear hug from God to get you through this. Who knows,Kevin you just might get that picture you want. If not, pile them all around Katie on the bed and take one like that. Bed or stairs won't count in the long run, it will be the people in the picture you will want. You climb in there too. Get a nurse or friend to snap the photo for you.
Love to all of you from Myrtle Beach, SC, Linda

Sue Ann said...

Katie amazes me in so many ways and the photo of her and the twins is so beautiful....... I know that is seared into your mind FOREVER and you are right you do need one with all the boys including YOU ....... set that timer and get a family photo of your amazing family...... hugs to you and the love of your life!!!!

Kelly S. said...

Thank you for your post, Kevin. On days when I feel frustrated in life, I will remember what you wrote. Because, really, life is all about little things like smiles, and moments in time on a front porch. You, Katie, and your whole family have taught all of us in blogland quite a bit about life. I will keep praying for you all!

Shirley Clark said...

I don't know Katie except through this site. I don't know Kevin either. My friend Michelle told me about Katie's blog and I was compelled to come read about this courageous woman. It's strange how I feel I know you Katie. You have been so open and forthcoming in your posts. I've almost felt as if I was sitting beside you as you shared your innermost thoughts. Then Kevin comes in with his post today. Again, I felt as if I had a private audience and Kevin was pouring out his heart to me. I don't have a lot to offer to either of you except to pray for strength for you and your family. Thanks for sharing with us and letting us feel a part of your journey Katie. Meanwhile, I'l continue to make appeals to God on your behalf.

Julia Aston said...

So glad to hear that Katie is in less pain and something is helping her. I guess it is times like this that we really evaluate what another person truly means to us - and what not having them here on earth will mean to us - what a difficult thing to have to come to grips with - and how very brave of Katie and yourself to put it in words...

Katie - I'm thinking about you today! and I said a prayer out loud in church for you...

sherryann (aka Sherry Eckblad) said...

Oh boy, you two have me in tears as I type this. I feel the love that you Kevin have for Katie and your boys and I can only imagine what you are going through. Katie is so lucky to have you on this journey with her. I wish you both comfort, peace and continued smiles on the porch.

Joan B said...

wise beyond your years. you are both blessed to have each other. these small moments are a more than worthy goal. hang in there.

Gina said...

Wow. All I can say is that your love for each other and your family shines through this and every other post I have read. I have read Katie's blog for a long time and have seen how much love she pours into her family. It makes my heart happy to know that she has such a wonderful husband to love her through this journey. All of you are in my thoughts and prayers, several times a day. Blessings to you all.

Anonymous said...

Kevin,
You continue to amaze me in your strength and your love for Katie is loud and clear.
Cancer sucks....it can put strains on families and sometimes tear them apart but it is apparent all through this journey that you and Katie have remained strong in your relationship and have been great inspiration to many. Your family will continue to be in my thoughts for a positive outcome with radiation slowing down the tumor and to stop the bleeding. Thank you for sharing when Katie is not able to...and to continue to share when you can.
HOpe Katie will be strong enough to spend some time at home.

cards by cara said...

Sending hugs and smiles your way.

Karen said...

I have prayed for Katie many times over the past months that I read her blog. I also pray for you, Kevin, and those precious boys of yours! I am deeply saddened by the turn of events. I too, hate to hear of the pain and suffering that she endures daily. I pray often that she gets relief from it all. Hold God near. He will guide you all thru the days to come. We all pray that Katie will be on those front steps again very soon, posing for pictures with all 3 of your boys!!

Cath said...

What a gift this post is. Thank you, Katie and Kevin, for letting us into your lives, for allowing us to participate, and most especially, for trusting all of us with your hearts. In the midst of so much turmoil, I am humbled by the beauty and meaning you are able to find at such a critical time in your lives.

I continue to pray for positive outcomes, short-term, long-term, all-term.

Robyn said...

Can't wait to see that photo! Sending lots of love and prayers your way ! TFS Hugs Robyn

Whimcees said...

Hello Katie and Kevin,

I am crying as I write this because my heart is breaking for the both of you and this devastating battle you have to fight every day. Your love for each other and your children is so strong - I just keep praying that this love plus all the love and prayers that are being sent to you from so many will bring you a miracle and Katie will get through this difficult time.

Love and prayers,

Barbara Diane

Jessie said...

Beautiful post Katie and Kevin! As Cathy said thank you for sharing with us! I keep praying for you all!

Pauline Wiseman said...

Katie... Your bravery never ceases to amaze. Keep strong, dearest girl.xx
Kevin.... You and your beautiful girl are such an inspiration to all of us who are also fighting this evil disease. I just would like to thank you for sharing your joys and pain. Whatever the outcome, and may it be only good, I will always be grateful that we met,although it was only online. Many, many thanks our love and prayers will always be with you and your lovely family.

Brenda said...

So glad you could talk to us Katie! Kevin thanks for sharing! I'm crying at the carwash! Katie, your smile is infectious along with your character! That's why you are so loved! I can't stop worrying about you! Love you! I wish that pic had Hunter in it.

Gina said...

Oh my dear man, you are doing so marvellously, looking after Katie and the boys. I know you are getting help from family and friends, but you must find someone you can talk to out loud. I know you don't want to upset anyone, but they are going to be upset anyway.
And now you already have that beautiful image of Katie bending to kiss you as you woke.
We will be here for you whenever you want to talk things over, but you should trust in a friend to help you carry this heartache.
Love as always XXX

Bumblebee said...

What can I say that hasn't already been said, but you are all in my thoughts and prayers. Bee

Laurie said...

Please know that you are all in my prayers every day! I will continue to pray for a miracle of healing and for peace! I loved ready your words today! Thank you so much for keeping us updated!

Anonymous said...

Continuing to pray, pray, pray that the radiation is doing its job. Katie and Kevin, you are both amazing people. You have all been on my mind so much.

Erin Cristofaro

quirks59m said...

Katie - I have followed your blog for some time and have always been in awe and at such a loss for words - you are such a warrior. Thanks to both of you for sharing such a personal time with us. You are all in my prayers.

judy said...

This post brings tears to my eyes. I
think of Katie, Kevin and the boys
and although I have never met any of
you--I care about you and keep you
in my thoughts and prayers.

Edith said...

What a joy to "hear" your words, Katie. What a brave lady you are! So many people are praying for you, waiting for a miracle. Every day I look at your blog, waiting for good news. Kevin, also shed tears with your words. I wish that you too can feel all the good vibes we are sending to Katie, you and the kids from around the world. You, your family, have reached deep into the heart of us all.
{{Many loving hugs from Chile}}
Edith

Mary Friederichsen said...

Kevin there are no words to express how sorry I am that this is happening to your family. However it sounds like our prayers for Katie and you are working!! And for that I Praise the Lord and hope that both of you can feel His loving prescence in your lives right now. We will continue on as Pray warriors for you. Stay strong and believe and soon you will have her home for another picture. All though I think it should include you as well!

Blessings and Hugs,
Mary

LORi said...

I'll warn you now...This will probably have tyops as I can hardly see the screen through my tears.

Oh Katie Bug, I am thrilled to know that you are able to sit up, type and think about crafting. Yes, with 6 kiddos...crafting at times feels like my 7th...no 8th, my husband Eric is my 7th!! I pray God continues to heal your body! I am praying hard for your compltete healing!!

Kevin, Your love for Katie radiates! You are blessed to have one another! Thank you for sharing your heart and the details!

We love you all - Lori

Jill said...

More tears from across the ocean - this time from N Ireland. Kevin, you and Katie are an amazing team along with your beautiful boys. You are also an inspiration to the rest of us. I will never forget how you have both faced this adversity and, as we all face adversity in our lives at some time, I hope that I can face what life throws at me with even a little of your strength, courage and wisdom.

With much love and prayers

Jill xxxx

Harriet Skelly said...

Oh it is so good to see words from Katie today and from you too Kevin! I have been waiting all weekend and praying that there would be a turn around for Katie!! I pray that Katie will be better enough to come home and get that picture taken!!

Jenny said...

Such a beautiful post from Katie and from you Kevin ... im in tears. Prayers are a strong force and I hope they are helping her find peace through this and for you and your family as well. I hope and will be praying really hard that she can come home and take another beautiful picture with all her boys. With much love and admiration for your family from all of my family. Sending love and prayers! xo Jenny S.

Holly aka Toy said...

Katie, I know you probably don't feel this, but your journey is such an amazing testimony of strength and courage to the rest of us. In a weird way, I feel a bit blessed by it. As I pray for YOUR strength and healing, I think I am getting some of those for myself as well. Bless your beautiful heart.

Kevin, I can't say enough good things about the way you express your love for Katie. I've been married for nearly 30 years and I don't know that my husband could say he loves me any more than you love Katie... it's just so evident in your words. You are an inspiration to us all, too.

My heart, prayers and love is with you all.

Gloria Dojlido said...

I continue to be at a loss for words. I pray that Katie will be able to go home and be on the front porch with you and the boys again. I hope knowing that so many the world over (Ontario Canada here) are keeping Katie and your family in our thoughts and prayers helps you to cope and endure to face another day!

Hugs to you all
Gloria

Christine said...

There is nothing more that I can say that has not already been said.
It was so good to hear from you Katie. Katie is so lucky to have you Keving, I too can picture her standing over you to give you a kiss. You both are an inspiration to all. Prayers are being sent your way.

Karolyn at Paper Therapy said...

My heart is breaking for you all . . . tears are blurring my sight as I type this so I hope you'll forgive any typos. Please know that you all are in my daily thoughts and prayers and am so honored to be a part of the prayers that will bring Katie that miracle that is so due such a sweet spirit. What an inspiration you all are.

Edwina said...

My heart goes out to all of you. I hope the radeation works. Thke photos. lots of photos.The kids and you will need them. I know she is ill, but the photos are very important. One day you will understand. Love to all, a scraping friend. Edwina Brown

Renee said...

You are all amazing people and I can't believe you are going through such a horrible thing but the way you deal with things is such an inspiration. I don't know if I'd be handling things like you all do but of course, I don't know. I do know one thing though. I haven't stopped praying for you and your family and also for God to perform a miracle and heal Katie completely. I prayed hard for the bleeding to stop and it sounds like it has. A miracle :) . One will never know why Katie got sick except for God but I sit here asking what could his plan be? I know that I will not stop praying and I know that our plans aren't always Gods plans but we have to trust in Him that he has his reasons and they're good reasons even if we don't like them.

Winnie said...

I am so happy Katie was able to write and spend time with you and her dad and that you woke to her kiss...What a blessing. Keep doing what you guys are doing..your love is such a gift to each other...

Kathy Mc said...

Don't think there's a dry eye in the house reading this story. Can't tell you how ecstatic I was when I read, "Yes it's me Katie here." Tears welled up and then I lost it. Forced myself to continue reading to the bitter end though as don't want to miss anything. You two are just amazing as it is difficult enough for the two of you but then being there for your boys is added stress. Kevin, feel free to reach out as blogland is here for you too. Thoughts and prayers continue your way ~ God Bless all of you!

Diana said...

So happy for the blessings you received today! And to hear from Katie was extra special.
I prayed for you all in church this morning.
I'll keep praying that the radiation can stop the bleeding.

Debbie Gaydos said...

Such a beautiful picture. I don't know what else to say, as tears stream down my face and I ache for you all, but also am amazed at how you can continue to find joy and hope in small successes. Continuing to keep you in our prayers.

Krystie Lee said...

Katie and Kevin, I never quite know what to write, but your family is on my mind every day! Sending hugs to you and your boys!

Sarah said...

I too am in tears but I am so happy that Katie was able to write a little. I am still believing in Katie's miracle. It has been done before and I believe God will do it again for Katie. Take care.

Barb- NICUGypsy said...

so incredibly happy to see you feeling well enough to post. I am so sorry that this has been so painful for you sweetie, just know that all your friends from afar continue to care about you and send you loads of hugs and prayers your way.

Kevin, it is unexplainable pain to watch your loved one like this, cherish each and every moment, make memories, laugh, cry, get pissed off, whatever. You are a wonderful and brave man and I am sure Katie feels your love and devotion.

Take care dear friends and I eagerly await further updates.

barb

Tina said...

Y'all are on my prayer list. I recently learned about Katie, her courageous battle and her loving and supportive family.

Kim O'Connell said...

Sniffle sniffle. More tears are being shed for you and your family. Sadness overwhelms me for what you and your family are facing and and my hearts breaks further hearing the words of love that are typed by your adoring husband. You and our family are truly inspirational and we are blessed to been a part of journey. Your strength and courage amaze me and you have offered up so many life to all of us. You and your family continue to be in my prayers.

Margie H said...

Kevin, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for sharing a little insight into your private moment...your love for Katie is SO STRONG! Continued prayers of strength to you both...LOVED her post today :)

Lauren said...

I'm continuing to pray for healing, strength and comfort for all of you. Katie, you are such an inspiration to me. Your courage and attitude have taught me more than I can say. Kevin, thank you so much for posting your updates with such honesty. God bless you!! I'm praying tearful prayers for you and your beautiful family.

Jak Heath said...

So pleased for this posting from you both, Katie for finding the strength and Kevin for being awoke by your beautiful wife.
I think it would be a wonderful photo for your album if all 5 of you were sitting on the porch Kevin so get someone else to take the picture this time round.

All my love to you both, you know how I feel. hugs xxx

marilyn said...

I, too, choose to believe that the radiation is working and that is why she isn't vomiting blood. You are both in my thoughts and prayers.

Tameko said...

Katie its good to hear from you. Kevin, as I read your words. Your love for Katie and the boys is so real. God, is listening to the prayers of so many on behalf Katie, and Family. I will continue to lift all of you in prayer.

Sarah said...

I'm sending you prayers for peace and comfort as I continue to follow your tragic story. A fellow stamper, blogger, wife, and mom, your story truly puts perspective to what is important in life and gives me cause to pause in my day and reflect on what's truly important.

Tenia Nelson said...

I love you dearie!!! I have been praying for you and your family!!! Love y'all so very much!!!!

Michelle said...

I too am reading your post with tears in my eyes.
I have been a follower of Katie's blog for some time now.
I just want to say that my prayers are with you, Katie and your family....thinking of you all every single day...praying for a miracle.
Know that you have all touched so many people's hearts all over the world.

Laura Davis said...

Katie you are one amazing woman your strength is so inspirational. I hope you find peace is all of this crap you are enduring. I wish you all the love in the world!
Hugs
Laura

Sankari W. said...

Dear Katie and Kevin - Keeping you and your beautiful family in my heart and prayers - writing this with tears in my eyes after reading this post - Katie, I hope you get stronger and stronger - sending you so much love and positivity! You both have touched so many people's hearts - sending you love and prayers!
Sankari

Davi said...

So hard to find the words to say...So good to know that Katie was awake, up and even thinking about crafting. Im sooo happy to hear that the bleeding may have stopped now. I continue to pray for you all! Looking forward to hear that Katie is home, those precious pictures get taken and your time together will be filled with laughter and your hearts will be filled with peace! Hugs to you all.

Debbie Carriere said...

Sending lots of love and prayers your way... so happy to "hear" from you, Katie. Kevin, thank you for sharing - your love and devotion are so apparent; and I agree with the previous poster to get all 5 of you in that photo. You all are truly an inspiration to me.

Meredith MacRitchie said...

Kevin, I was teary eyed while reading this... what a beautiful post. I can feel how much you love Katie, and it was lovely how you shared what she brought to your life. My husband and I were talking about Katie yesterday, and what she's going through - he is usually one to shy away from strangers' business, but even he is hoping for a miracle for your family. Glad to hear that Katie's spirits have been lifted and I sincerely hope you can get that photo you are hoping for. Make sure you set the self-timer and jump in too!

Thinking of you ALWAYS.
Meredith

Pony and Petey said...

Yay Katie!!! So glad you felt good enough to post! I think of you every day (many times!) and pray for you each time. I also pray for Kevin and your boys.

I'll be praying specifically that this radiation will stop the bleeding, provide some relief and will spare your life long enough to get a smiling picture on the front porch and under the Christmas tree!!!

And yes, crafting does feel like it's that big and important a part of my life = )

Caroline Hackney said...

How wonderful to read your words, Katie, although Kevin you do a truly fantastic job of keeping everybody updated. Like many others commenting here, my words come with tears, but also prayers for your family. Sending hugs from Texas, enough for everybody!

True :) said...

This is more than a journal of the graceful way Katie and her family are dealing with a horrible illness. It is a true love story.
Keven, your love for her is so strong and probably what is keeping her swimming.
Katie, you have to know that you are loved by hundreds of people who you have never met. I count myself as one of them.
I thank God for every day that you have good moments and for the extra time he is giving you to spend with your family. I pray that you continue to get better and feel up to going home for those pictures that Kevin wants so badly.
Take care sweet girl!

Hugs,
True :D

gayle-rn said...

Dear Kevin,you are so strong along with Katie of course no one even the doctors know how she will actually respond but I know prayers will help you deal.I have been through a few traumtic surgeries and my belief got me through.There are miracles we just don't see them.You and Katie have built a wonderful life with wonderful children who really don't understand exactly what is going on.I once along time ago was one of those children.Keep pictures for them and talk freely with the boys.I thank God Katie seems to have some control over her pain and the vomiting is better-there is a positive.Keep fighting and neither of you ever give up....You both have touched my heart and I keep you both in my daily prayers.....GOD BLESS and keep you STRONG.Love Gayle gayle-rn@sbcglobal.net

Regina Mangum said...

Dear Kevin and Katie,
I don't know you personally and only just heard about you and your family a few days ago. However, I just wanted to stop by and tell you that you are so inspiring and amazing. Thank you for reminding all of us to cherish the time that we have with the people we love and that to be selfless and giving is what life ultimately is all about. I hope that the future brings you hope, peace and comfort and you should be proud that your children will grow up with the knowledge that their parents are kind, loving and giving people. Will be thinking of you and sending my best.

~*Joni said...

Kevin and Katie, thinking of you this evening as I reflect on all things related to life. Recently my husband was having an 'off' day - one of those where everything you tried to do didn't go right. He complained about how horrible the morning went. I stopped him and said, "It's not horrible. It was just crazy." I have to remind him of our own situation when our then 2 year old daughter was diagnosed with cancer. Those days were inconceivably hard, she is now 7 and talks all the time. ALL the time. ;)
I just wanted to come by and say hello for the first time, although I've followed the daily posts and have prayed for you all. Love and aloha, may He watch over you all and hold you in His hands.

Michelle said...

Dear Katie and Kevin

I have been quietly following for months now feeling like I didn't want to intrude on your very personal pain.

But when I read your words today Kevin I just had to say that I am sending love and hugs from Australia to you and your family.

You are both such beautiful, inspirational people. The whole crafting community world wide is there for you.

Marybeth said...

Thinking of you all,during this difficult time. Prayers for strength and healing coming your way. Yes Katie I do understand the need to want to craft. Hugs and more prayers to you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Hello Katie and Kevin,

We continue to pray for you, your boys and all who love you. Your love and commitment to one another is beautiful.

Anita said...

This has touched me deeply and to be thankful for the little things. Sending hugs and prayers and that you get your wish.

Anonymous said...

I am wiping away tears as I just read your beautiful words. Katie is an amazing lady with strength that is beyond words. I personally don't know Katie, but I have followed her blog since her diagnose last year. Thanks for sharing with us all.

I pray for your entire family daily.
Keep fighting Katie!! You are sure loved by so many.

I lost my mom to cancer 4 months ago after a 13 1/2 yr battle and Katie's fight reminds me so much of my mom's strength and fight she had.

May God continue to watch over and heal Katie~ God can and does do Miracles!!

Marsha said...

See all these comments? They are because we love you, Katie, and your family. Hoping to see you soon and see that beautiful smile we all love.

Theresa Momber said...

Cath said it perfectly. This post is a gift. Katie, I'm so grateful you are getting some relief and improvement. Crafting is your creative outlet, something that is a part of who you are, so I can certainly understand that you miss it so much.

Kevin, thank you for taking the time to keep us updated and for the glimpse into the love you share for one another and your boys. Much love and hugs to you all!!!

Mel said...

Oh Kevin, my heart aches so much for you all. Like everyone else, I read Katie's words with tears of joy that she is feeling well enough to post! I read your words with a heavy heart while you think of the things you need to do before it's time.

Gather the boys and get those photos now....and know that the photo on the porch is not far away.

Cherish the memory of waking to Katie's kiss. Moments like those will get you through whatever is to come.

Sending more prayers for Katie to feel better each day, and strength to you all. We all love you guys xxxxx

GlitteryKatie said...

So pleased that the bleeding is stopping. Love to you all xxx

Cheryl said...

Thank you Kevin....I needed to hear this. God answers prayers. I am soooo thankful for these good days. Not sure what tomorrow will bring for any of us....but so thankful for what we have today! Hugs & kisses to all of you!

LouLou said...

YAY KATIE!!! YAY KEVIN!!! You both brought tears in my eyes by reading your wonderful posts! I don't know from where you take all this strength ... hmmm, no, I know! It's LOVE. This precious LOVE that you have for each other! Thank you both to take time to update!
Kevin, YOU too have to be with Katie and your boys on the porch!
I keep my finger crossed for a positive radiation today.
Sending all my love, and hugs and thoughts your way, across the Ocean. I'm far away but you are all close to my heart. Keep fighting and take care!

Kathy D said...

I am typing through tears, too. I've never commented before, but just couldn't NOT say THANK YOU and "you are in my thoughts" after this post.

Katie - YAHOO! So happy to hear your voice again!

Kevin - Many blessings upon you. I believe your honesty and ability to share will help you and your boys in the days ahead.

Linda said...

Hey, Katie, Linda here.. the Linda who "lied" to you about scooters and Disney and regretted it ever since.
even though you forgave me.
I really think trying to keep awake to know what Radiation is like is one of the silliest goals I have ever heard.. zonked sounds much better in my book, but that is me.
I am praying, and am so thankful for the direct knowledge of what to pray for and how!
Love to all of you, prayers for all of you, and looking for the pic of Katie and Hunter and Nate and Will, on the porch, smiling, like you belong. Oh, and Kevin? I think you have earned your place on the porch with them! Can't wait to see it.

Becky Jo said...

Katie, it was so good to see you post! I never thought of crafting as a child, but I do miss it when I can't craft! The photo of you and the boys is beautiful!!! As always, I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

I, too, am crying today as I did in your previous post, Kevin. I said it before and I'll say it again - I'm so glad Katie has you! And...your children, too! You are as remarkable as Katie is. I hope you take the time to say everything you are feeling to Katie. I'm sure she knows, but it's always nice to hear it put into words.

Hugs, Blessings, and Love to you all!

Junebugpins said...

Special thoughts and prayers being sent your way...Love to you all....
You inspire us with the special memories you continue to make and give to your family....
Part of that family is also so many you haven't yet met...but who care so much for you all...
Hugs this morning from DC...

Lisa S. said...

As I have told Katie before : She and your family have touched soooo many of us. She has grown in our hearts, and we all love her .
I would like to thank you Kevin, for making things as smooth as they can be= for her and the kids. You arent in an easy position.
We are rooting for her !!
Much love to you ALL
xoxo

Allison said...

Had a fight with the husband a few days ago...you reminded me why that is stupid. Here's hoping both you and Katie get your wish...a picture on the front porch with your beautiful boys. You and she are lucky to have each other.

jengd said...

So happy there seems to be a positive turnaround from the last posts here. I hope you continue to feel better Katie and you all get back to that porch for family pix! BEST!

Kathy said...

Yay, Katie! So good to "hear" your voice on the page!! I pray this radiation works and really, it's okay if you are knocked out for it!
Kevin, sweet, precious words you poured out for your wife. I have never met Katie, you or your family, but I feel as if I've known you all forever. I love the words, the feelings, the love you have for Katie and your family and I am praying your short term goal is happens very soon! I can only pray too, that the short term goal becomes a long term realization.
Hugs and prayers,
Kathy

Grandma Nancy said...

I wish I could hug all of you! There is nothing like love and affection from the ones who mean the most to us. I am so glad that Katie surprised you with a kiss. Say what you need to say, Kevin. Even if she is sleeping! Do it for yourself. My heart aches but I am so happy for the hopeful report. Enjoy whatever time you have together and celebrate it all. We all continue to pray for that miracle! We love you Katie!

Dean Dykes said...

I don't do much commenting, but I do a lot more praying. Katie has been such a blessing to so many people. I know that Kevin and the boys miss her. But such wonderful memories you have shared. We are continuing to bind together for peace and strength for your family.

jen del muro said...

I cried, too!! Sending well wishes from TX! Much love-Jen

IamDerby said...

Katie and Kevin,
Sending you both love, hugs, and prayers. Hoping you get your wish of happy front porch pictures soon.

cgashley said...

I agree with Jak...have someone else take the pictures and take lots of them. These are precious days. Prayers are being offered out here in Texas: God knows...

Laura Isham said...

I am blown away by the love you have for each other. It is beautiful and inspiring. Thank you for continuing to share the journey. I am sending love and continued prayers.

chrisd said...

What a joyful moment for you both as you awoke with Katie there and I know you savor each second.Sending hugs from Michigan and keeping you all in my prayers.

Colleen said...

This is an amazing gift for all of you - the writing! And for so many others that want to support all of you through this. Know there are more of us each day cheering you on...

Colleen

Chantell said...

Hope that Katie will feel well soon and be home with you and the boys. I will keep on praying, nothing is impossible.

Chantell - South Africa

Miranda said...

Katie & Kevin, my continued thoughts and prayers are with you and your boys! Hope Happens! Miranda

Cat said...

So happy to see that Katie was able to make a short post today! I am so inspired by her courage and dignity as she faces this challenge in her life. She is so blessed to have a husband who loves her so much. I think about you often throughout the day. Sending thoughts, prayers, and hugs your way.

Heather Jensen said...

It breaks my heart to hear your sadness, Kevin. I again, just said a prayer for you and your family. I think part of what breaks my heart so much is that I just went through the same thing with my mother and her brain cancer. Watching the daily decline, especially at the end is something that will stay with me forever. May you find some comfort in all your sadness. I will be thinking of you all.
Katie, if you read this...you are on VERY STRONG woman and I can't begin to tell you how much your outlook has impacted me.

Hugs,
Heather

Scrapping Galaxy said...

Its incredible to hear you're up and typing. I too read this with tears in my eyes. We've never met but I thank you so much for sharing your art, life and struggles with all of us. I'm beginning my own battle with what is likely cervical cancer. Everytime I'm about to cry I think of your posts. Thank you for inspiring me to fight and for letting me know I'm not the only young woman facing the battle of cancer.

Pryn said...

I have tears in my eyes and goosebumps on my arms for a love that is so pure and true...Kevin, your words are so very touching and when Katie gets to read them, you will be giving her the same joy. I pray countless amounts of times all day, every day for you and your family, Katie. I was so excited to "see" you in my inbox this morning (I subscribe to your blog). Keep on fighting Katie....we are all pulling for you! Sending you love and hugs!!!

There She Goes Clear Stamps said...

You are such an amazing and strong couple and the love that you have for each other and your family is so touching. Thank you for sharing your struggles and joys with all of us!

Kristin said...

I hope as you said that the sign of less to zero blood is a good sign for you and Karie. I will keep you all in my prayers.

Squirrellyshirley said...

You INSPIRE me. You are my HERO. Thank you!! Prayers every day for you.

Shirley

Shazza said...

I am crying now kevin, such beautiful words. I truly hope you get your wish to have Katie back home again and on the porch with the boys. love and hugs to you all
Sharon
x

Kim Hughes said...

Katie and Kevin,
It was wonderful to hear from your both. Oh' how I wish I could reach through this computer to hug you. Continuing love and prayers are being sent your way

Jessica Sankey said...

Kevin & Katie-- the two of you have given your friends near and far an amazing gift by being so open and generous with your time and love. Thank you. What you've done is beyond inspirational-- I have no words. Much, much love to all of you. I hope you can enjoy some sunshine today.

Rea said...

My heart goes out to your family. God bless you all, I pray you will feel His presence in your lives during this time, like never before. I will be continuing to pray for you.

Suzi said...

Dear Kevin and Katie,
You are making us all cry, but not all sad tears. Your love for each other is obvious, and those bring tears of joy and hope. I have to suggest, maybe urge, you to talk to a pastor or the hospital chaplan. Learn about Jesus' love for all of you. Be ready to meet Him whenever. Know that you can see each other again if any one of you should die. Please. I'm praying that God will give you plenty of time for this decision, but don't dally. Please. I'm sure there must be paper and ink in heaven! :o) I know it's a happy place, and paper and ink make me happy, too.

Maria said...

Yay!!! Katie so glad to see you're feeling better, you sound so happy!
Kevin you are a great man, and your love for Katie is so true and beautiful.

Keeping you all in my prayers.

Jimmi said...

It is so nice to "hear" from Katie for just a moment!
Kevin, you are an amazing man, an example of what love really means.
Sending more prayers your way.

Queen Mary said...

Good for Katie getting up to post a note! Good it seems the radiation is working; good for you Kevin that you are doing what you need to do for yourself and the boys. That photo of Katie with the boys is so precious! God's ways are sometimes so far beyond understanding. I hinted at this to Katie once, but my father received the same diagnosis but at a much earlier stage, just a few years ago. He is 82 now. My whole family thinks of and prays for Katie and her boys -- all 4 of you. My mom, my 5 siblings and the 16 grandchildren of my father.

Lisa Johnson said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers Katie and Kevin.

Deepa Mishra said...

Dear Katie & Kevin,

My name is Deepa Mishra. I am a Ph.D. in Biomedical Engineering specializing in drug delivery & tissue engineering and currently working at the MD Anderson Cancer Center in Houston Texas. I wasn't sure how to email you so I'm submitting this as a comment. Hopefully it will help you, and anyone else who reads this who might be suffering from cancer.

As I mentioned, I am a cancer researcher at MD Anderson, and one of my collaborators has shown that curcumin (a compound isolated from the edible Indian spice Turmeric) is very effective in killing cancer cells of numerous types, including very hard to treat ones. As it is derived from food, there are no side effects, and its benefits are too numerous to name in a post. If you are able, please try to ingest ~500mg of curcumin per day ... I think it will really help. If you look up papers by BB Aggarwal at www.pubmed.com (or google) you will see that there is extensive research. And it won't hurt at all to try ... you have nothing to lose and everything to gain! I take it daily, and have been amazed at how much better I feel; plus I no longer get sick. I continue to send positive thoughts your way. All my love, Deepa

Holly said...

Amazing posts - I have been so remiss in updating myself as to your progress. I truly hope the radiation is working and you can return home to your loving family. You are so amazingly strong, brave and a true model of courage and grace under pressure. Keeping you in my prayers.
-holly in SoCal

Charlene Austin said...

Well HELLO awesome girl! Katie you put a smile on my face when I saw it was you posting as well as your hubby! Love ya girl!

Edith said...

Dear Katie and Kevin,
I hope you read Deepa Mishra's post above. What she says is also in the book "Anticancer, A New Way of Live", by MD, PhD, David Servan-Schreiber. Maybe Deepa's post could be part of the miracle we are waiting for...
Warm hugs,
Edith

Anthonette said...

Dear Katie & Kevin,
Please know that you and your young family are in my thoughts and prayers as you fight the good fight.

Cancer sucks big time! My mom's family has been hit hard by cancer.

Hugs to both of you!

Joannie Legoe said...

Katie and Kevin, What a wonderful surprise to see the post from Katie at the beginning of this. Katie, you continuously amaze me with your strength and courage! I am sending MUCH LOVE to both of you and to all three of your boys. Kevin, may your short term goal come true!!!!
Joannie Legoe

Mary Sara said...

I like so many others don't know you, but am so touched that you are sharing this. There are no words, but please know that prayers and love are being sent your way. Kevin your love shines through. Wishing your short-term goal comes through.

Smilie girl said...

Thank you for keeping us all updated. Lots of love and hugs for you all. Praying that you will have lots more positive memory making times, like the photo on the porch.

Debgem said...

Hello Katie & Kevin - I was so pleased to see this post, and to read Katie's words. The love that you both share shines from every word and I wish with all my heart that a mircle happens.

Kevin - Jak said earlier about gettting a photo of the 5 of you - I would do it as soon as you can. Sending you all the love and positive thoughts I can. XX

Anonymous said...

PLEASE draw near to our Lord. Life is eternal; this life on earth is only temporary. You can all be together again in eternity. Simply confess to our Lord that you are a sinner (we have all sinned) and ask Him for His forgiveness. Then acknowledge that Christ died on the cross for you and rose again. Ask Christ to be your personal savior. I know you may not believe in this, but my great-gandfather did not believe in germs. Just because you don't believe something does not mean it isn't true. I wouldn't tell you all of this in such an abrupt manner, but Katie does not have much time. PLEASE accept Christ so that you can have eternity together in heaven.

In His love,
Sue

kathlee said...

My thoughts and prayers remain with you and your awesome family. What an inspiration you are to everyone.
Blessings,
Kathie

smhoffmann said...

Kevin thank you for your beautiful post and to hear your love for Katie and the boys. We are all praying for you and your family and thank you for the great honor of sharing your battle and heartfelt feelings with us. I think we have all come to love your family through this battle and hope that you know you are not alone. You all in my prayers.

Kristin Moore said...

We've never met, but wanted to send thoughts, prayers and virtual hugs from a complete stranger in Ohio. Your story has touched my heart, as well as hundreds of others. I'm so sorry you are going through this but am inspired by your courage and strength.

Jackie Njeri said...

You are in my thoughts.
Jackie. From Kenya.

bbsox55 said...

Love is a very powerful thing! Take her home and share that love, and may the moments be slow and true. Prayers are coming your way!

Curt in Carmel said...

Kevin/Katie. . .You two are what is right about this world. With all the craziness, self-centeredness, whining, and selfishness in this world, you two shine a light in all that darkness to let us all know that there are sweet, decent people left on this earth. And it is such a sorrow to know that you are enduring what you are. It doesn't seem fair, and yet there somehow seems to be a purpose to it all; if nothing more than to share your hope with all of us who are privileged enough to be included in your story. Hugs to you both. Best, Curt

Helen L said...

I am so amazed at your and Katie's courage and how you treasure and have focused on what is important in life. thank you for your wonderful example of selfless love to her, and Katie, our prayers are for you and Kevin and your boys> If there were anything we could do to heal you we would, but all we can do is continue to pray for you all. I hope you can feel our hugs and concern for you over the miles!!! Love, Helen LeBrett

deedoodle said...

I am not sure what is better or worse having time and planning on your side or I watched my Dad just go with no time to prepare or plan. My whole soul aches for Katie and Kevin and the kids. Love and prayers. Hope and strength sent your way. Be strong and fight like no other.

Maria said...

I have so many thought right now and do not know where to begin. Thank you so much for sharing your story and strength with us! No man is an island. We are all here to help each other in some way. Your source of strength and love as a family is pure love, so amazing and inspiring! Am keeping you all in thought and prayer! Sending warm hugssssss your way! May God surround you with His blessings and love!

Michelle said...

I'm keeping your family in my prayers!

Samantha said...

Kevin, I read your post with tears streaming down my face. Your love for you wife is so tangeable and beautiful. She is lucky to have you and for you to have her. I will continue to keep your family in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope you can achieve your short term goal of having Katie with your boys on your porch once more. Hugs and blessings.

capfam said...

My thoughts are with you and your family. Be strong and wrap the love of family, friends, and strangers around you and your family like a warm blanket.

Peace.

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