I'm a hanging in here... still no routine to the way I feel, but we've said it over and over again... it is what it is. So it worked out that I had no chemo yesterday due to really some miscommunication and in all honesty not a big deal. When I saw my oncologist, he was quite concerned for me for (that was Tuesday). I rarely cry when I visit him and I was in pain and crying and even though we discussed our next course of action, I don't think anything really stuck from that visit. He didn't think I would be ready by yesterday and yes I would have been, but an extra few days is really no big deal.
So, we took some of this extra time to do some "odd ball" shopping. We went and shopped plots, coffins, cemeteries etc. I think I have all my "wants" and "needs" figured out and I also have some peace of mind. I'm glad that Kevin went with me and that we were able to do this together without too much emotional upheaval. We are going to have a combined headstone with 2 plots.
For a while there I worried about a 3rd member, but I'm not going to worry about it now. I'll let Kevin and the "3rd" person figure it out when it comes their time.
I apologize ahead of time due to the subject matter... not that fun I know.
Thank you all for continuing with me on my journey... you all deserve kudos!!!!
Until next time.