Sunday, October 2, 2011

MultiMotions?

Dear friends,

It's getting hard.   Everything.  I felt well enough and coherent enough to walk with Lynds to get the boys last Friday.  I walked with E and Kevin for the first of school and that was wonderful but Friday was the first day that I was able to  pick them them up.  I haven't dropped them off or taken them independently yet... it hurts!

Anyway seeing them raise their hand on the playground showing that they recognized me was a hard moment... one of those all emotions rolled into one.  It was a surprise but I can't promise from one day to the next if I can get them.  Will told me it was a nice surprise.

It took me 2 weeks to get to the point where I could actually get them.

Also, just wanted to let you know that I did get that brain MRI and it's a clean scan.

45 comments:

hello gorgeous said...

keep strong sweetie...everytime you do it is a positive reinforcement you are getting somewhere...however long it takes.

Yay! to the clean scan...sending much love and many hugs

hugs

hello gorgeous xxx

Joan B said...

how hard.

and yet they know that you love them and that is the most important thing of all from their perspective. they know you are trying. I am so sorry.
however, I am thrilled to hear about the clean brain scan.

hugs and hope you can pick them up this week.

cbuswell said...

Delighted the brain scan is clear!! that's great news!

cgashley said...

Hi Katie...I have never met you in person, but I feel I know you anyway; I wanted to send you this: HUG.

Praying God gives you the strength to get through each day. I'm so glad the brain scan was clean!

Anonymous said...

Oh how you love those boys of yours, and howthey love you. I'm so happy that you were able to pick them up!

And I'm so delighted for you that your brain scan was clean.

Many hugs, prayers and love -

Deborah F.

Karan said...

Hi Katie. I've followed your journey this past year, checking in every week. It's wonderful that you felt strong enough to pick up the kids last week, and I hope you can again soon. I know those kids see your strength and courage more than you do yourself. You are a strong and amazing woman. I'm sending hugs and a load of love to you and your family.

IamDerby said...

Oh that made me cry, the things we take for granted when we are well. I can't even imagine how much it must hurt. Hang in there though, they know you are doing your best. Sending you love!

Ted said...

Praising God that your brain scan was clean! Such wonderful news.

You're truly an admirable woman, Katie... I'm not sure I'd be as strong as you.

Thank you for allowing us to share your journey.

Novice Naturalist said...

Thrilled to learn of the clean brain scan. And happy to hear you were able to pick the boys up, bittersweet moment though it was. HUGS and love to you, Katie, dear.

Vicki Wizniuk said...

Thank you for reminding us that the simple moments are just as important as the milestone moments in life.

So good to hear your scan was clean.

Be strong, we're all here for you, even though we can't be with you physically. Lots of love and hugs.

Margie H said...

SO HAPPY to hear about the clean brain scan result!!!

Vicki phrased it well...simple moments are just as important as milestones.

Love to you sweet friend!!! xo

Whimcees said...

Hello Katie!

I am happy to read that your scan was clean! Great news! I pray for you every day that your determination and bravery allow you to share more of the moments in life with your family that you miss most. Stay strong Katie girl - wishing you a good day today! Sending Love and prayers across the miles.

Hugs,

Barbara Diane

AJ said...

keep staying strong Katie-and just keep feeding off the love and support from your boys! I know how much stronger it can make you!! :) You are awesome!!

Theresa Momber said...

This battle you fight is the greatest gift of love a mother can give. Such wonderful news about the clean brain scan. Much love and strength to you!!!

Chef Mama Lori said...

I love you so much my dear friend. You are always on my heart and in my prayers. Your love for those boys shines through in everything you write. Thankful for the clean brain scan. Praying always.

Sandy said...

I'm so happy your scan was clear. Good for you sweetheart! Please stay strong - the boys are learning from your actions. You are such a wonderful mom, wife and friend. God Bless you!

Sue from Oregon said...

Hi Katie. Your post is a reminder to us all that it is the little things in life that stick with us. Happy to read of your clean MRI. Take card.

Candy F. said...

Aww Katie -- I love you girl! Be happy for special moments because those are how great memories are made.

Ann said...

Katie,

Many hugs and prayers to you!!

gramma jacki said...

thinking of you always....thankful for any happy moments you enjoy......wishing you would feel better to enjoy those every day things we so often take for granted. please please go away cancer! peace, katie.

Gill said...

That is such good news about the brain scan. I continue to send thoughts & prayers across the Atlantic Ocean.

Laura Isham said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your struggles. I can't begin to know how hard it is for you, but I think about you often and hope each day brings you some strength.

So glad that the MRI is clean. Wishing you more good news to come!

Jennie said...

Praying for you Katie and thankful the brain scan was clean...HUGS!

Sarah said...

So happy the brain scan was clean. Take one day at a time. Your kids know you love them and you are fighting for them. Take care.

Z-Scraper said...

It's all worth the fight Katie. They are still too young to really understand what you are trying to let them know. Simple things you want them to never forget. A few years from now they will know and all of this will make sense to them. They will then realize the strength and honor you have and they will love you all the more. We all love you Katie. You are surrounded by Prayer Angels.

Linda said...

Hey, Katie, so glad about the scan, have been anxious to hear results.
I am so sorry that everything is so hard for you, I hear your mothers heart.
Your boys are being changed by this, they are learning how strong their mom really is, they are learning compassion and a million other things.
I am hoping your home care nurses have support for the kids as they adapt? just a thought. love and hugs

Sheri said...

You are my hero, Katie. Look at you, still putting others first. I just know those little guys hearts swelled with pride when they saw you. A moment they will always remember. So two happy things, that and YEAH! The scan was clean. Of course now you can't say it is "all in your head" hehe. Stay strong Katie girl. Know that lots of people are praying for you

Grandma Nancy said...

So happy about the brain scan! Continuing prayers, positive thinking and love! I'm also pleased you were able to get the boys.

AShu93 said...

Glad to hear the MRI was clean. Sending hugs your way.

Bobbi-Lynn said...

So glad to hear about the scan!! Keep holding strong, you are amazing!

judy said...

How hard Katie that you cannot do
all the things with and for your
kids that you want to do and yet your
love is there and they know it. So
glad to hear the scan was clear!!
Thinking of you!

Donna C said...

Katie, like everyone else, I am so glad that your scan was clear and you are able to be with family. Your strength and clear voice continue to touch us all. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Susan said...

Dear Katie,
Thank you for the update. So happy to hear about your brain scan, and the trip to get the boys. They, too, are learning to see that little things are so important. These are lessons that will serve them well all through their lives. You just hang in there, and remember how many people love you and are praying for you and your family.
Sue

Janine said...

Great that you were able to get to the school and also about the MRI scan. Try to keep positive - think about you often!

Donna said...

What a precious moment when the boys waved over to you when you picked them up, one I have taken for granted, thank you for reminding me of these special times and so happy to hear your brain scan was clear. Big hugs to you. Donna x

Gina said...

Great news on the scan results, and well done on the school pick up. Your boys must have been thrilled. You sound like your really suffering at the moment...remember...every day is a blessing, and if it hurts your still here :)You have done so well to cope through this year, perhaps the nearness of the anniversary of the original diagnosis is dragging you down a bit. Try to plan a celebration for that day.....it is worth celebrating!!!
Sending love and hugs XXX

ameklus said...

I cannot imagine what it is like to walk in your shoes. Know that I am always praying for you.

Hugs-

Annette

Lorraine said...

Katie, you are putting things in perspective for a lot of us - what truly is important. I'm glad to hear that you were able to pick them up and happy to hear the scan was clear. Big hugs to you!

Ashley Nguyen Newell said...

Well, beautiful girl, it seems like you and the kids have it in the right perspective. It will be a nice surprise each day you can come and if you can't, that's ok too. Honestly, my mom didn't ever pick me up or drop me off at school. I rode the bus and I was fine with it. :)

Linda said...

Great news on the brain scan Katie! Still have you in my prayers Katie. Stay strong so very many people are praying for you! Hugs, Linda

Barb said...

Sending lots of thoughts, prayers, and hugs your way! Very happy to hear about your clean scan... 'Chemo Brain' is just so frustrating! I am so sorry, Katie... Big hugs...

Curt in Carmel said...

Hey Kiddo! As many have said before me, it's the little things that mean so much. We all take these for granted, and you remind us all how very important these things are. Once again, after not visiting for awhile, I still see your strength and courage shining through. You are an amazing human being, and I so admire you and your determination to get through this. I may not visit as often as I would like, but I do think about you often so know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs to you and your sweet family. Best, Curt

Stacy aka Twinshappy on SCS said...

Katie I am glad you were able to get them from school. Praise God the MRI was clean. Hugs and prayer for you today.

Mary Friederichsen said...

Praise the Lord Katie for your clean scan!
You will get there Katie,With all of these people praying for you and lifting you up for healing,how can you not! Your Children know how much you love them and that it took courage and strenght to go to pick them up. Small steps,but important ones.

Blessings and Hugs,
Mary

America said...

How awesome you were able to get out to get the boys. Great news on the MRI. GOD bless you always. Praying for you and your family.

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