As you know, the last week has been hard on me both physically and emotionally. I had a complete mental breakdown the other day out in the garage, not very glamourous trust me, but it was good to get it out. I'm good right now, but it is true that I've been relatively morose these past days. I have felt that my view of life has been so skewed and jaded and that I don't see the same things the same way.
For example the tv... I know... I hear those same sighs in my head. One night was really bad... every commerical I watched I would think, oh that's not me right now, I can't do that right now, and the coup de gras (another sigh, I know)... I just kept watching and staring at all that glorious, shiny, bouncy hair. Don't laugh... I know its tv and things are "dramatized". Just another "moment"!
I know that any major event can change one's perspective but I also know that it's not healthy to fixate on anything too specific... good, bad, or the ugly. I have been perusing our family gallery of pictures and I have been looking at older pictures and thinking about the past and realizing that even now in the present, I view those past pictures so differently. Ahhhh, I love that word perspective.
So here is a picture that was taken quite while ago. I was thinner, younger, and healthier. I love this picture.
BUT... there are things right now that make me HAPPY. Here are a few photos of some of those things. This first one makes me happy for a couple of reasons. First of all, this bench was given to me by some dear friends and was made by their neighbor (thank you neighbor). Second of all, it is filled with soil and herbs planted by Kevin's mom while she was here visiting with us.
This picture is of strawberries that again were planted by Kevin's mom and will absolutely thrill the boys when fruit appears.
I guess I'm seeing a theme here... more flowers planted.
And finally, a gift from one of my old high school friends... so pretty. I guess I'm yearning for spring and summer, for new life, for sun, for growth, for the future....
Thank you to me dear, dear friends both near and far, met and not met, known and unknown...
Until next time.