Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Grrrr.... just checking in

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Dear friends,

Its Wednesday and I'm a bit despondent... It's been another hard week, although I feel pretty good for the most part, but vomiting has become a big issue the last couple of days.  I haven't been able to eat and most of what I eat of late has been coming back up with hatred!  Its been physically taxing when it occurs because it's the kind that leaves you on the floor shaky, weak, tired, and teary.  I'm sure there is something going on other than normal nausea and I've got a dialogue going on with my Doctor and we'll get it taken care of, but in the mean time, I'm just mad.  Plus, I'm just physically weak.  I hate being out of breath doing daily routine things and honestly not much of it.  Washing a pan can literally put me over the edge... mind you, we have heavy pans! And who knew clothes could weigh so much.

This is supposed to be my month, I've paid my dues for just a little respite and I want it.  It sounds so petty, but I'm going to say it because its the way I feel.  It's just not fair!

Thanks for being around and letting me vent.  I'm sure things are fine and we'll move on from this, but at the moment I'm seriously irked at life, my body, and the cosmic scheme of things.

Until next time.

-Katie

21 comments:

Cassie said...

Vent away, my friend. . .I know I sure would if all I were doing was vomiting. Just know that despite it all you're loved.

KER said...

BIG HUG...and good vibes...np to vent...you feel like crap...let it out and let us encourage you...kinda win-win...but so sorry you are so sick..

Gina said...

No it's not fair! You stamp and scream at us all you want, that way you keep your good energy for your family :D XXX

Emily said...
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Karen B said...

No, it isn't fair, it stinks big time! I wish I could share some of the burden for you, but as I can't, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

jackib said...

It makes me so sad to read your words when you feel so crummy. I wish there were something any of us could do to alleviate your misery but I think all some of us can do is be here to listen so yes, vent away! Hopefully your doctor can figure something out to end your nausea and vomiting. My best thoughts are you with, Katie.

Margreet said...

I'm so glad you use your blog for venting....we are good listeners...but unfortunately we cannot do much more....I'm so proud on you how you handle everything....hugs!
xxx Margreet

Welcome said...

Love you, Katie. Hang in there..

Inky hugs, Pauline

Kathy said...

Sometimes venting helps get it off our chest! I'm praying for you Katie:)

Susan said...

It really isn't fair, and you have every right to be mad - so, just go with that. Don't feel bad about feeling mad! In the meantime, we will all keep praying that you have more good days than bad, and that the good days keep getting better.

Joan B said...

fair isn't even in this story. it is outrageous. vent away as the best most of us can do is listen and send hugs though the internet. I hope the nausea stops. just stops.

donna calamari said...

Keep venting. We come here everyday so you have non-judgmental ears to listen. Whatever you feel and say is OK. It is the way you feel and we want to help, if only by saying we are listening.

Ted said...

If crafter friends can't vent to each other, to whom can we vent? :) Vent away, dear Katie! Just know that each day you remain in my prayers. I know God's listening. :)

Whimcees said...

Hello Katie,

No it is NOT fair. If I had my way you would have days of sunshine and laughter and a body without pain and nausea. My heart hurts for you and I can do nothing but send you love and prayers and the hope that better days are ahead.

You are one of the bravest people I know and since day one you have been fighting with everything you have. So be MAD - you deserve it - and keep fighting. Stay strong Katie girl - stay strong!

Hugs,

Barbara Diane

Linda said...

Katie,

You know what? I am so angry that you have to go through this suffering. I really am angry at this whole thing. Please vent away.
If I had the tools, I would so fix everything for you, really I would!
But I don't have what it takes, and that makes me feel so helpless.
There are some things I have learned in life that keep me from feeling hopeless, and that is that when we are at the end of our strength and ability to cope, we can call on the our Creator, who is waiting with open arms to carry us and give us His strength and hope and love and courage to keep pushing ahead and fighting.
I love you and your family, He loves you more.. where I am helpless, He is able.
With love and hugs and prayers.. Linda

Becky Jo said...

So sorry to hear that you are still having a bad time with this. It definitely is not fair. Seems life never is. I wish I were there to help out and give you a big hug! I'd wash those heavy pans and do your laundry, too! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers daily. Hang in there like the trooper I know you are. Hugs!!

Christine from FL said...

It is not fair! Keep venting, we are here for you. I am keeping you in my prayers. God Bless you and your family.

judy said...

It is not fair at all!! Shout it to
the rooftops if you need to. Thinking
of you and hoping that you will soon
feel better and have the much deserved month break.

Emily Painter-Davis said...

I hope and pray God's strength on/in and around you.
Blessings.

Donna said...

Oh Katie, It really isn't fair, I try to imagine what its like for you hun, obviously thats impossible but I know I would be screaming and shouting if I were in your position. I so wish there was something we could do. Just know that we are here for you with our cyber hugs, I know its not much but if I could do anything else I would. I hope things get better soon, you so deserve some peace from it all. big hugs. Donna x

Curt in Carmel said...

Bless your little heart. I'm sorry for all the crap you are going through. When I read your description of the vomiting, I knew exactly what you were talking about. I had that kind once when I had food poisoning. Your description brought back that awful recollection. I'm just so sorry. . .Sending big hugs to you and your sweet family. Best, Curt

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