I just wanted to let you know that things are rough, I know the good will be around the corner, but knowing it doesn't help right now. I feel like I'm clawing my way through life right now and it's hard. It feels long and sharp, soft and tattered, sometimes it feels like things are ok and sometimes it feels hopeless. Right now, life isn't fun, the sun outside seems meaningless, it seems like the kids are raising themselves, the highs and lows of everything almost makes the journey not worth traveling. I'm tired, but know that I must go on and that seems in itself like a burden.
I'm sorry...I ask why...I cry...I will keep on...
Until next time.