I can check off blood work and the CT scan for today and of course we'll just wait for the results when they come in. So here is my story that I wanted to share with you.
The other night we were in JoAnn's and Nate had to go to the bathroom, of course. Funny thing is that he didn't have to pee, of course. Anyway, he's in there and the only thing he's missing is his reading material. I of course am relegated to waiting outside the door these days... privacy is such a bid deal now. As I'm waiting, I realize that there is another shopper waiting to use the bathroom as well, waiting, waiting, waiting. Anyway, she ended up asking me if I was undergoing chemo and we struck up a conversation. She was a very nice woman and it turns out that she is a 5 year survivor of a diagnosis of a late stage cancer.
Our interaction the other night got me to thinking because she is the first person that has actually asked me about my cancer. Clearly, I am the poster child for the cancer patient "look" and I guess it is or maybe it isn't that odd that no one has ever approached me about it.
And you know what, it was ok. This then leads me to wonder if other cancer survivors out there should be more interactive. This lovely woman was not in any way invasive, nosy, or curious. All she wanted me to know was that she is a survivor and that she wishes me the very best in my own situation. I know that there are cancer patients all over town, but I have yet run into one that is visibly going through treatment. Even though I don't hide myself, I continue to feel self conscious about my baldness and no, I'm not paranoid, but I swear I've gotten some looks here and there.
This then leads to an even bigger concept of connection. Do we connect with the people around us, especially those who have visible "issues"? Do we stay back because we fear that we are being nosy and that the other person would find us invasive or pushy. Why do we speak with some and not speak to others. Why eye contact is made with some and not others and if eye contact is made, do we continue with a how are you or a hello? It's true, silence is awkward.
Really just some food for thought for both you and me.
Until next time.